Tuesday, February 07, 2006,8:07 pm
LOOKING BACK ~
haiis . anotherr day .went back to 3e3 today . nobody was there of course .i sat at my oldd seat . thinking back on the g0od old times in the class . how me and justin would argue . i would laugh with the all of them . suanning the teachers together . cherie waiting outside for me . threee weeks . andd already we had an unbreakable bond . iMISS that so much . i tried imagining i was still theree . andd forr a while, i really felt like i was still theree . this was the yearr with the sec three camp. malaysiaa trip . andd ALL the fun stuff . haiis .nothing feels right anymoree . forr the past few years of my life . basketball was the ONLY thing that couldd ever make me smile . no matterr what happened . be it hearbreaks or just plan bad m0od . just touching it could put the smile back on my face . but now . even THATS been taken from me . i really feel like cryingg . i thought of the old times . where i would go around waving like an idiot and saying hi to everyone . playing with the teachers, like we were all best friends . i miss it all . im not saying that cck is badd . but its just not my HOME . i know i may seem wierdd andd over-dramatic . but thats how muchh iLOVE the sch0ol.i hadd finally foundd a perfect life . with my friends . and THEN that was takenn from me t0o. maybe i wasnt meant to find peaceee . everr-changing environment . LIFE IS FULL OF SURPRISES . my only wish now . to findd a source of happiness in my current life . SIGH =x
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